what can i say? here i am staring on an empty white space waiting for my thoughts to pour. then again, i guess i'll have to postpone another rumination for another day. i'm not inclined to think of the past and ruminate on why my life's been going haywire lately. or maybe i'm doing all right. otherwise, i'll be ranting and raving here... oh well... just one thing, i'm missing my friend who's in a far,far away land... wish she'd get in touch anytime soon. miss her.

ei! tomorrow's my mom's bday. do you think its time to get that cellphone already? i'd be moving in my new house any time now... i'm anticipating expenses... but then again... oh hell, i can't decide. things come to those who wait they say. so i wait. hehehe... who knows? someone might give me a cell. wish!

i've always thought i was right brain dominant. now after reading that book "awakening your intuition" i wonder if i'm left brain after all. like i really can't appreciate art that much and i'd rather read and write rather than draw and appreciate the arte. i'm always conscious of what's moral and not, always trying to organize things the way i think they should be organized. i can't stand ambiguity -- and that's the truth.

right-brain dominant people can tolerate ambiguity. so that's it for my illusions of being right-brained. i definitely needed something i could put my fingers on and that better be clear and not a bit vague. but, as the book said, left-brained people can be intuitive too. and that's my rationale in saying i'm right-brained (my being intuitive, and sometimes i do rely on my gut feel). in a lot of situation, i often say what other people are thinking and i often sing songs running in other people's head. at one time, i suddenly blurted out: it's been a long time since i last experienced an earthquake. the next day, there was an earthquake. some friend told me meron daw akong sumpa. i don't really curse, i just say or rather blurts things out and it happens. i wanted to hone that talent if i only know where my intuition is coming from.

but i'm sentimental too... i often feel depressed and anxious (we usually process bad experience using the right brain. left brain only hears positive things)- mahaba pa tong usapang ito. sige, sa susunod i'll make kwento about what's happening in my social (hehehe) and love life. as if there's any.=)

i hope this gets published...

ano ba bago sa buhay ko? ummm...me bago akong kakilala, she's from the USA (balikbayan) and she'll be leaving on June 30. ang bilis... not enough time to get to know her more.

she gave me her cell no. so that means i have to get a new cell so i could text or maybe call her. wala akong masabi...

in a way, buti na rin at wala akong cellphone. this morning (at about 1:30 - 2:00 am) our jeep was hold-upped. they took our wallets, except for one of our companion who doesn't have one, kinuha yung cellphone niya.

now, i hope i'd never,ever,ever encounter anything like that ever again. wish!

how many days since my phone left me? two weeks? three? lost count. losing a phone is like losing a friend/boyfriend/girlfriend. it takes getting used to. alam mo ba yung feeling na pagpasok ng bedroom you expect to see somebody there and then get really disappointed because you realized that she/he's not there anymore? ganun lagi ang nangyayari sa akin this past days... i go inside the room na ang iniisip ay: may text kaya ako? tapos bigla mare realize kong wala na pala akong cell phone. alam ko namang wala na akong cell pero may anticipation lagi na tignan ang text message pag pasok ko ng room. kasi madalas dun ko siya iwan. di ko naman bitbit lagi cell phone ko... hay! siguro kung di this week, next week bibili na ko.

sad... nalaman ko may girl na si aaliyah. actually, i need to send her a message pala. ano ang sasabihin ko? ay! sayang, you're in a relationship na pala. baket? eh urong-sulong naman ako... besides, maybe that time when friends were trying to meet us up she's already seeing somebody. eh kung kelan lang naman iyon.

it's almost 7pm. i guess i have to go na... next time na lang yung post ko regarding my ruminations about the parallelism of cell phones and relationships. hehehe...