so now, what am i going to say? what do i have to say for myself and my big mouth?

i wished i hadn't said what i did. i wished i just kept my mouth shut and my feelings inside. i just let the feelings boil and simmer inside. would that be better? i think i wouldn't be alone now thinking, there they go. talking about me, bitchy, bratty me. bitchy, bratty, selfish, immature me.

how else would you call me? how would i know that that ugly bitch was the one who called the One and not the other way around? how would i know? i went ballistic without asking. i thought so the One called the UB and not me and that UB called me to say that the O cannot call me. what a hell of a misunderstanding. and me the misunderstood. and they are now patting each other's back (i hope that's the only place they get to pat) and talking about how lucky O to see that side of me before she gets too deep.

hell...now i have to go through this alone. good for them, maybe now O will realized how UB is so important in her life and can't live without her. so...ano kasunod? eh di sila na. I HOPE THAT NEVER, NEVER EVER HAPPENS. they would never ever end in each other's arms so that UB could just stop wishing for O. because she's mine. i just hope O realizes this before i get myself another butch. so there.

i'm back...though not really.. i wonder if being alone is better than being in-love? i wonder if living with and loving someone will compensate for the anguish, the pain, the hurt that being often accompany love. jealousy is one... i'm tired. don't want to talk about it, just want to get over and done with it.

hate this, this really sucks. i hate her to hell and hope she finds herself in my shoes...opppsss, i guess she just went through that. anyway, i wish she'd find herself thinking and wanting me so bad she can't sleep, she can't eat, can't do anything right and the hell with that giant bitch of a nuisance. hope and wish she gets out of her life. now, ain't that selfish? yes it is. and i know it.

okay, the bitch can stay in her life as long as she stays out of mine. and how i wish she'd go through hell of a pain listening to her bestfriend mop because she wanted me back.