so now, what am i going to say? what do i have to say for myself and my big mouth?

i wished i hadn't said what i did. i wished i just kept my mouth shut and my feelings inside. i just let the feelings boil and simmer inside. would that be better? i think i wouldn't be alone now thinking, there they go. talking about me, bitchy, bratty me. bitchy, bratty, selfish, immature me.

how else would you call me? how would i know that that ugly bitch was the one who called the One and not the other way around? how would i know? i went ballistic without asking. i thought so the One called the UB and not me and that UB called me to say that the O cannot call me. what a hell of a misunderstanding. and me the misunderstood. and they are now patting each other's back (i hope that's the only place they get to pat) and talking about how lucky O to see that side of me before she gets too deep.

hell...now i have to go through this alone. good for them, maybe now O will realized how UB is so important in her life and can't live without her. so...ano kasunod? eh di sila na. I HOPE THAT NEVER, NEVER EVER HAPPENS. they would never ever end in each other's arms so that UB could just stop wishing for O. because she's mine. i just hope O realizes this before i get myself another butch. so there.