dreaming of shoes

medyo nababagabag lang ako sa dreams ko ng shoes.

siguro mga 3 to 5 days (or nights) ago, i dreamed someone asking me to try on a pair of shoes.  the shoes were not really me so i declined.  i said its too big. but she insisted. and so i wore it and it fits! then she asked me to take it off and gave me another pair of shoes. yun daw ang bigay niya sa akin kasi magkasing size lang naman daw yun nang pinasukat niya. it was a girly flat shoes, i tried it on and it was comfy.

then last night (morning na actually kasi  morning na ako natulog), i dreamed that a man gave me leather sandals. this man i supposedly know is an ardent suitor (in my dreams). i tried it on and it feels comfy. but had this strange feeling that if i accept it, that would give him the notion that we're an item. so i talked to him and asked if he thinks accepting the shoes means accepting his love (ngarks!) and he said - aren't we? so i returned the shoes to him and told him i am not in love with him because i'm in love with somebody else. so i wrapped the sandals in plastic and returned it to his bag.

the thing is, why am i dreaming of shoes? will there be a change in my role in the coming year? o ibabalik ako sa dati kong division at gagawin ko ang dati kng ginagawa? sinoli ko kasi yung shoes. hehehe...pero in my earlier dream, i accepted the my-not-usual shoes which is comfy din naman.

Glutathione

Ano ang Glutathione o Gluta ? Una itong nakilala sa madla bilang pampaputi at pampakinis. Sumikat ito dahil maraming Pinoy ang gustong pumuti at kuminis. PERO, dahil hindi rin malinaw kung ano nga ang gluta, naglipana rin ang mga misconceptions tungkol dito. May nagsabi na nakakatakot daw ito, kasi kung kaya nitong paputiin ang balat, ano kaya ang epekto nito sa ating atay? Hindi rin kaya pumuti? Akala ng marami ito ay isang bleaching agent katulad ng mga ginagamit sa damit para maalis ang dumi. O yung mga pinapahid sa mukha para matanggal ang mga pekas. Pero ano nga ba ang Glutathione at ano ang nagagawa nito?

Ang Gluta ay ay binubuo ng 3 amino acids: Cysteine, Glutamine at Glycin. Natural na may gluta tayo sa ating cells. Ano ang cell? Ang cell ay ang pinakamaliit na unit ng ating katawan. Ang ating buong katawan ay binubuo ng mga cells. Ang ating organ – puso, atay, lapay, balat, baga pati buto ay binubuo ng mga cells. Ganun naman pala at mayroon tayong gluta sa ating cells, bakit kailangan pa natin uminom ng supplement na gluta? Unfortunately mga kapatid, nade deplete ito dahil sa ating exposure sa polusyon, stress at unhealthy lifestyle tulad ng pagpupuyat, pag-inom ng alcoholic beverages, paninigarilyo, etc. Ang pagkonti ng gluta sa ating katawan ay nagdudulot ng paghina ng ating immune system o ang natural na panlaban ng ating katawan sa sakit. Sa totoo lang, pwede naman na mapanatili ang anti-oxidant na ito sa ating katawan basta sundin natin ang mga ito: wag i-expose ang sarili sa pollution, baguhin ang ating lifestyle – bawal magpuyat, manigarilyo, uminom; at palaging kumain ng pagkaing masustansya sa araw-araw, tulad ng pagkain ng 7 hanggang 13 klase ng prutas at gulay at iwasan ang stress. POSIBLE BA YUN? Posible ba na lumabas ka ng bahay at hindi makalanghap ng usok? Posible ba na kumain ka ng 7-13 prutas at gulay ARAW-ARAW? Possible rin ba na hindi ka makaranas ng stress? Kung para sa iyo ang sagot ay oo, congratulations. Kung hindi naman, ito ang alternative – kapatid, labanan ang sakit sa pamamagitan ng pagpapalakas ng iyong resistensya. Huwag nang hintayin na magkasakit ka pa o lumala pa ang sakit mo. Ikaw ba magpapayong kung kelan basang-basa ka na ng ulan? Di ba pag umuulan, bubuksan mo muna ang payong bago ka lumabas ng bahay (o ng jeep, kotse, eroplano, opisina)? Parang ganito ang gluta, payong na magpoprotekta sa iyo laban sa ulan ng sakit. Nitong nakaraang Sabado (Nov.2) umatend ako ng Royale Product Presentation. Nakilala ko si Dr. Jenelyn Sedutan, isang paediatrician at Royalista. Ayon kay Dr. Sedutan, ang gluta ang nagpo protect sa ating cells sa mga “free radicals” na sumisira sa malulusog na cells. Ang free radicals ay mga abnormal cells na dumidikit sa normal cells at ginagawang katulad niya – abnormal. At pag dumami na ang mga abnormal na cells sa katawan mo ano ang pwedeng mangyari? Panghihina, pagkakasakit, pre-mature ageing at marami pang ibang klase ng sakit. TANONG: Sino ba ang taong sakitin na may magandang kutis?

Sinabi ko sa isa kong post – kanino ka maniniwala, sa mga artistang endorser ng produkto o sa mga karaniwang tao na gumamit na nito at napatunayang epektibo? Si Dr. Sedutan, nagpatotoo sa bisa ng glutathione (taken with Royale C). Bago nating Royalista si Dr. Sedutan, siya ay may PERSISTENT CHRONIC ASTHMA. Severe ang kanyang mga asthma attacks. At sa takot sa pag-atake ng asthma, katabi na niya sa pagtulog ang banig-banig na gamot sa asthma. Adik na daw siya sa solbutamol. Halos wala na nga daw epekto ito sa kanya. Kaya nung inalok sa kanya ang gluta, sinubukan niya ito. Lahat naman nasubukan na niya, bakit hindi ang gluta? After ilang bottles, napansin niya na hindi na siya masyadong inaatake ng hika. Napansin din niya na hindi na niya nauubos ang banig-banig na gamot na katabi niya sa pagtulog. At ito ang dahilan kung bakit siya naging Royalista.

ITO ANG PARA SA IYO: Huwag nang hintaying igupo ka ng sakit, agapan ito habang maaga pa. Palakasin ang iyong resistensya para labanan ang sakit. At ang taong malusog ang katawan, may BONUS na maganda at makinis na kutis. Ang gandang bonus diba? #clearskin, #glutathione,#gluta #asthma, #healthycells, #antioxidant#fightfreeradicals, #boostimmunity

my thoughts on love and relationships

watched an episode of face the people where the "guests" if that is what they call them, is a man and a woman in a may-december love affair.  and whose affair is rejected by the people around them. namely the man's son and the woman'a auntie.

ay naku, bat ba kailangan kong ipaliwanag ang context? ang isyu lang ayaw ng anak kasi lolokohin lang daw ang tatay niya. at ayaw ng auntie kasi matanda na yung lalaki.   matanda na nga ang tatay mo boy, marunong na yun mag isip para sa sarili niya.  and it so unfair to pit yourself against the girl. sya o ikaw? bakit? kaya mo bang paligayahin ang tatay mo in a way na magagawa ng asawa? besides, the very reason why the father hired a household help (yep! the girl is a household help.  and it is one of the reasons that the son don't like the girl - hindi siya ka-level nila kasi katulong lang) is that because the son cannot be depended on to keep house. laging nasa barkada sa labas. 

kaya naman daw niya mag trabaho, aalis na lang daw ng bahay. go ahead boy. dapat matagal mo nang ginawa yun.  the thing is, that is emotional blackmail. last ditch effort to sway someone (in this case a father) to do his bid. for what? lolokohin lang ang tatay? matanda na yun. in case lokohin nga lang siya, problema na niya yun. at wala ka sa position to tell your father what not and what to do.  just like you, di ba hindi ka rin nagpapasabi kung ano ang dapat at hindi mo dapat gawin? di ba ginagawa mo ang gusto mo kasi you think that's right for you.

okay na mag worry ka at magsabi sa tatay mo kung ano ang tingin mo. but in the end, its still his life. if he makes wrong decisions - well, that's what families are for - to support each other and NOT to control each other.

this is not a farewell

tonight, i will start counting the days and nights until you are with me again. i'm missing you already. we just parted ways this morning when i left you at the bus terminal. you're going home. i understand. i was even the one who prodded you to go. because i knew that you would always carry the burden in your heart if you don't. and because i believe in you. i believe that you can do wonders. that you can make things work. that you can get your family through this most difficult time, whatever happens. i love you dear. even if i don't show it. even if i sometimes get mad at you. as the song goes...ikaw lang ang nais makatabi, malamig man o mainit ang gabi... kaya kahit nag aaway tayo, ayoko pa rin mawalay sa iyo. ingat ka.

success and failure

successful people owes their success to many people that helped them through hard times. failure on the other hand is nobody's fault but the one who failed. how come? could there also be some people who caused your downfall? a person in authority who pulled strings to pull your feet?

missing tatay

it has been days since father died. and i have been looking inside my heart and mind for bits and pieces of time together with him. this exercise is an effort because of the long time that we were not together. in fact, my other siblings were lucky because they were with tatay longer than i did. i was only 6 when my parents separated and i was left to the care of my lola. looking back, one of the most cherished memories was when i was 6 or 7 years old. we were going down a steep slope. for a child, it was steep. and i was afraid to go down on my own for fear of falling. tatay then lifted me up on his shoulder and told me not to be afraid because tatay will take care of me. and i felt safe. and there was a time,i think i was 5, when i was sick and i don't want him to leave. but he said he is going to fetch my grandfather from the airport and will be back soon. i asked him not to leave because i was sick. and he assured me he'll be back soon and i should sleep so i'd get well. so i slept and was surprised when i woke and he's beside me. i asked - why are you here? i thought you're going to fetch lolo? and he said "kasi may sakit ka." i was just glad that before he got sick, i had the chance to embrace him tightly during my nephew's christening. it has been a year i think when i decided to stay away from him because of the many controversies spawned by the people who wants tatay to themselves. but i missed him so much that when i saw him i hugged him tight. my only regret is that when i asked him if he missed me and he said yes, i was not able to say "i missed you too tatay."

shoulda, coulda..

i'm not one to make new year's resolution but...may isang bagay akong naisip para pagaanin ang buhay ko. that is, alisin sa bokabularyo ko ang sana at dapat. pag late ako, sasabihin ko sana gumising ako ng maaga, sana di na ako nag breakfast...or dapat ganito na lang ginawa ko, etc. wala namang nagagawa ang mga sana at dapat after the fact. what i should do is learn and not repeat doing what i've done. so ganito. tomorrow, i need to wake up early, eat breakfast early and leave early. pwede pa akong mag walk to the terminal. maaga na ako, magiging fit pa di ba?

addendum:
hindi pala dapat "need". its better to say "i choose"