fearful to fearless...(naks!)

ilang minuto na lang at haharapin ko na ang aking fear - fear of being told i'm not going to graduate this school year. my auntie once told me, a year will pass whether you use it or not. o di ba? tama naman? kaya nag aral ako. and YEARS passed. as in, talaga namang years. at hanggang ngayon hanggang asa pa rin ako na makaka graduate. kahit na sabi ng aking curriculum sheet na may 1 na lang akong subject na kulang. hindi ko pa rin maalis sa isip ko: things will probably go wrong. yes, i am such an optimist! dapat nag ophthalmologist na lang ako. and if that don't make sense to you, don't ask me for any sense. because my fear in itself does not make sense. i can't help it. though i know that i should not let other people dictate how my life will go. i have to pursue whatever it is that i wanted to do and the hell with other people. thing is, i know that some people could make or break your efforts. for real. this is not out from some telenovela. some people do not know why they fail to get what they want. and i just realized recently that it really has something to do with how people in power could twist your fate so you end up losing. but i don't want those people meddling with my thoughts. that's the only thing that i could control. my thoughts, my emotions, my dream. if these people meddles with my goal, they could. but i know that i should not let that thought stop me.