one month after

i still get the jitters whenever i hear something crash or drop, or hear something (a cat maybe) walking on my roof. but i'm sleeping better now. and able to think more clearly and reason with myself whenever i hear something at night, i would just remind myself that everything's okay and that we won't be caught by surprise. it would take sometime before someone gets in.

life threatening situation - whether true or just a perception - has a way of changing people's priorities. i know mine did. just what changes are those? for one, safety is more important. so whenever i feel that i'm not safe, like when i commute going home, i go down the bus. it doesn't matter if i already paid. money can be earned, we only have one life to live. not to say i'd spend at a drop of a hat. on the contrary, i have learned that i need to save some in emergency cases like in situations like that attempted break-in. it is fortunate that i have someone (my eldest brother) who is more than willing to help me in times like these. and i thank God for him.

i also learned the importance of having friends, and being in good terms with my neighbors. and of course, i'm thankful that i was not alone at that time. though my mom was not able to do anything but panic and cry, it would have been more difficult for me if i was alone at that time.

everything happens for a reason. and what happened helped me see things and people in a different perspective.

on sex videos and diaries

hayden kho's defense that the sex videos he took are like his diary where one takes notes of events in their life.

the thing is, diaries are written after an event not during. whereas the sex videos are taken during. and the taking of videos are planned - premeditated if you please. nakakainis lang na ang nagsabi pa ng ganitong defense ay ang kanyang defense lawyer who claims to be an advocate of women's rights.

sucks!