when it rains it pours... and they usually come in three's.  last is supplied by my cousin.

i guess there's some truth in this.  last sunday, i missed 2 buses to cavite. then my father was confined for a surgical procedure and to top it all, my brother insists that my mom move in with me right away.

i was thinking, i could have some time with my house before my mom moves in with me.  you know, get a feel of being alone, owning this darn house, getting the feel... then my brother comes and ruin it all.  i'm not saying i don't want her to move in with me.  it's a given thing.  the thing is... i needed to establish my space before another's presence is imposed on me.

that's how i feel about this whole moving in thing.  i used to think i'll be living alone. independently.  then i thought, okay mom can live with me.  then maybe i could move in ahead of her.  then along came the brother... darn!

my father's condition - i don't want to worry about that. since i can't do anything about it.  i don't have the resources to chip in the expenses.  all i could do is spread the news to his siblings and hope that maybe they'll chip in to shoulder part of the expense.  i wish!

another thing... if my job is in danger, maybe i should start looking for a source of income somewhere.  there's this job at the hospital. only, i'm afraid i'll get bored with it and end up being so stagnated.  of course there are other means to get my brain working.  i could enrol again for my masteral (for whatever purpose it will serve), brush up on my skills (like what?) or just watch a movie. or take up a hobby. or volunteer for a social development work. hmmm... so many options.  so little time.  my sister told me there are times i'd be required to work on saturdays or sundays.  but my off will be transferred to weekdays.  sounds fun?  hmmmm... not if all my friends get their day offs on weekends.

oh well, it's almost six pm and i have to find my prof. better get something to eat first.

ay! nga pala i saw my barkada from way back (highschool)... mag reunion daw kami.  yun lang.  i wonder what the future has in store for me?

just this morning (or was it afternoon?) i was wishing for a 3100. guess what? jaypogi offered me his cell for 4000. kaya lang 3530... tinawaran ko ng 3T ayaw ibigay. hehehe... if that cell is meant for me, i guess he'll reconsider my offer of 3500.

here i am...getting all excited at the prospect of finally... getting that elusive piece of shit that is an all important paper for the bureaucracy. the one that would say, hey! this gel's an educated one. the hell... pero ha? na excite talaga ako. kasi with all the hazzles i've been through, i'd finally be through. shyet... what could be more exciting? ummm... moving into my new home? the one i could finally call mine?

that was the longest wait... thanks to my brother. and i think i really have to thank him. imean appreciate what he's done for me. only, i kept thinking... he's not doing this for me. it's because our mom will live with me and that is why he has to help with the house. whatever.

isa na lang ang kulang - partner for life.

ay! meron pa pala... a business that could save me if and when that rationalization scheme gets in place. i can't help but feel excited about something... parang merong mangyayaring maganda sa buhay ko na magbabago ng takbo ng buhay ko ngayon. grabe! ito kaya ang epekto ng pagkakahuli ko sa wakas ng aming elusive professor? at parang suddenly i could see the light at the end of the tunnel. naks! cliche!

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