everytime i hear a phone beep, i resist the urge to look in my bag to see if i've got message...waaahhh!!! i don't have a cel anymore. kaya ko to! i keep on saying. maybe i'll try not having any means of mobile communication device for a while. a month i said to myself. i wonder if i'd last that long.

i guess it's like losing a friend or getting out of a relationship. it takes getting used to. i'm so used to having a device that could connect me to friends and relatives near and far.

what was life before my cellphone? i got by naman... di naman ako nasiraan ng ulo. ang hirap lang sa technology, once you get to use one - parang you can't live without one anymore. well, mahirap nga. kasi i have to take a chance everytime i got out. like who will i see at the school? nobody - if i'd have my cell, i could text somebody and would know. as it is, i have to spend more than 50 bucks for my transportation for nothing. not really nothing... nothing happens for nothing - my favorite quote. for whatever it may mean, coming to school kinda boost my morale and helped me decide (magpasya?)to really take that much needed leave so i could finally face my graduation requirements. i needed to get this out of the way...

ayun! pag may direction akong gustong puntahan, nawawala ang interest ko magkaroon ng lovelife. bad... not entirely nawawala just relegated to the background. mukhang yung isa lang ang willing to pursue me.

yesterday, she called kasi nga i texted everyone i cared to text that i'll be giving up my cell so i could not text them anymore until i got another one. that afternoon, she called just to say hi and i find that so sweet... kakainis. she's the black horse among the three i'm interested in. mukhang sa kanya ako mahuhulog ah! sana lang, sure na ko. based on what her friend told me she's been through a lot of hearthaches already and i don't want to be one in the line up.

why is it that my one prime consideration in entering a relationship always includes the economic? actually, before i even knew aaliyah's story, i thought i wanted her even if i have to be the one to feed her. now i know how financially independent she is, parang na insecure naman ako. like, grabe iba ito...now, with this cat i have to be ensured that she won't be dependent on me, financially. pero unti-unti, hindi na nagiging mahalaga iyon. why? i'm so smitten with people who shows kindness and sweetness towards me. let me not be blinded by this i pray... oh well...

it's time to go... i have to feed the dogs and cat pa. what will i buy kaya?