so here i am again, wondering who the hell is beth. baseless are my fears. jealousy springs from insecurities i feel. and why would i not feel this way? with so much going on for her, why would she even take a look at my direction and maybe feel something like... like... or maybe think something like... i could have a future with that girl.

this sucks. just yesterday night, i was thinking of apple and aaliyah... which one excites me more, which one i feel more for. funny that i should be making a choice when there's really no choice to make.

it's raining... and it looks like it won't be stopping any sooner...

i really shouldn't be thinking about these things right now. what i should actually be doing is finishing my papers and getting it out of my way so i can start looking for better opportunities.

bahala na nga...