one Tuesday morning, while in a long queue at a terminal going to Manila, a woman approached and seems to be looking for something or someone. at that instance, i had a gut feel that she's trying to look for a "short-cut" to the long queue and she did. how? long story. that is not what i intend to write about.
as i was mulling over the thought of calling her attention and has every intention of humiliating her, i asked myself. why would i want to do that? of course my answer is: because what she's doing is not right. there are other people in line who were there before her and it is not right for her to do that. how should i do it? tell her off. and then, I thought of asking God. what could be a better motive or intention on calling on her bad behaviour other than to humiliate or to correct a wrongdoing? As I asked God, I was busy thinking of reasons why I need to "correct" her. Then in the middle of my rationalizing, I stopped myself. I tried to still my thoughts and let God talk to me.
and truly God answers questions asked in prayer. He said, "love".
I realized, God does talk to us. he answers our questions. The reason why we don't hear it is we are too busy with our own thoughts. We are busy rationalizing. We ask questions but are not really interested in the answer. Or we want His answers to coincide with what we think should be.
Love is the reason why we need to right what is wrong. Its not for vendetta or to put others to shame. Nor is it for righteousness sake. Parents discipline their children not because they want to punish, but because they want their children to walk the straight path, because they love their children (most I think).
This is actually scary and exciting. I am excited that I could talk to God and He'll answer. I am scared because I don't think I'm ready for His answers. I am holding on to my "idols" as Bro. Bo said.
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