i reviewed my blog in my other account... doesn't seem to contain any malicious thoughts. i'm being paranoid again - i think the lord might have read it. i used her PC when I checked my mails, must have left it open. but i am quite sure i logged off before i left. but did i? i did, i did... so why the ever haba nguso? its been what... 3 days since that eventful day when the lord asked for a miracle. i'm just a mortal. and mortal as i am, i have feelings too. what? don't i have the right to feel this way? that bitch.

this ever growing feeling of antagonism and hostility is killing me. i need to get out. out of here.