ang gulo ko. one moment i was ecstatic sa development about somebody who i've been eyeing for the longest time, then nakarinig lang ako ng balita about another person who caught my eye just recently - nagbago na naman ang ihip ng hangin. biglang wow! siya naman ang gusto ko. ang gulo ko...

kaya siguro wala pa kong syota hanggang ngayon. eh hirap naman kasi... i've been trying to catch her eyes, her interest for the longest time. eh sala sa init, sala sa lamig. di ko malaman if i'm making progress or not. i think she likes me too and then she doesn't. not that i asked her na... ang torpe ko! kainis. it's just that i can't think of anything to say when she's around. ang kulit ko naman pag iba ang kaharap ko.

i've been thinking, what if i go and ask her if she likes me? and then she goes like, yes but not romantically speaking - basag naman ako nun!

this other gal, she's pretty ha? the other is not...though sobrang appeal sa akin. this pretty gal, i just met. sort of... i hope she remembers me - pinakilala lang in passing. hindi naman niya ko tinitignan -- wala naman siyang dating katulad ni gerl no.1. then i got a good look at her when she's not looking (i mean stare-which she doesn't see kasi she's so spaced out), pretty pala siya. hindi lang pretty-i think she's gorgeously pretty. hindi lang nag ayos. then i heard she's in a relationship na. so wala lang, i'm still pinning for this gerl#1 naman. and then somebody told me she'd just came out of a relationship. wow! para kong nanalo sa sweepstakes. biglang natuwa ang puso ko. shyet. gulo ko talaga. sino ba talaga? and if i choose anyone of them, would they return the way i feel?

maybe not. and that's the chance i'm so afraid to take. yoko na ata mabasted. omigosh! omigosh! i think... well, i should think. maybe this holy week should give me the right perspective. what if... nah! i wanted to go to Bicol sana but they'll be staying there like forever. i can only stay for a night and then be a slave for 2 more days before i can retire for 5 days.