development? i think it was.. until i learned that there's somebody else hovering over the apple of my eyes... ay nakow! will this ever end? lagi na lang may karibal. si aaliyah kaya? well for one, tinigilan na ko ng friends niya ng kaka match making. and i've learned that she's not that young naman pala.

o my gosh!!! ang gulo ko talaga... i was going through my past posts, and there it was - i was vacilating between apple and aaliyah... well, kasi sobrang attractive nitong si aaliyah and i thought she's too young for me. until i learned the trutch. or at least half of it. hehehe... so bumaling ako kay apple. which was my first choice talaga. kaso... there's this other girl... eh ayoko ng ganun. ewan ko!

if she's interested then i'm not (tsaring!) - what i really want to do is fight her nail and tooth. oh! sorry, let me give that girl a name. how about bella? as in bella flores? kasi kontrabida siya sa lovelife ko. sabunutan ko kaya? she is so mean... why do i say so? kasi she knows how i feel and she drops hints that they (apple and she) are cozy like you know, intimate. she did not say it straight but that's just how i read things are between them whenever she opens her mouth.

but... and here is the big BUT... i maybe putting too much into her words and action that is not really there. baka ako lang naman ang nag i interpret ng mga ito. knowing me - i'm such a drama queen. pinalalaki what is not really there. like i create my own monsters.

ei! in defense of me -- 90 percent of the time my intuition or gut feel is right. kawawa naman ako, ako na ang nag ko cross exam sa sarili ko, ako rin ang nagde defend... i hope there's someone out there who will defend me. there is... and she IS out there. miss her na. tagal naman niyang bumalik...

will i wait for a lifetime for apple to notice me? or should i go for aaliyah who seems also interested? i may not be reading this right... but i think apple is also interested. i just don't know if its the romantic kind of interest or she's just in need of another friend. as if she doesn't have tons already...

serendipity... i believe that there will come a time that that things will happen and when it does, it will be at a time when i'm really sure of how i feel. or maybe not... maybe something will happen that will make me realize just how i feel for both of them. isa lang talaga dapat. mukhang easy target si aaliyah... si apple hard to get... i think i'm being unfair to aaliyah... i should not think that way about her. just because she's lonely eh easy target na? ang bad ko... if i'm ever going after her, it's goodbye apple forever...